Soul-searching and self-discovery

At the start of a new rotation our supervising doctor asked us to go around the room and give a short introduction of ourselves. While it was a straightforward task, there was something about listening to everyone’s story that made me reflect on what it is that defines who we are.

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Always my introduction will begin with:

My name is Jasmine, I’m 29 years old and currently studying medicine. 

But upon reflection of that day I got thinking, I know I am more than my name and age and what I do, but really:

‘who am I?’

Even while digging a little deeper and thinking about my greatest loves

  • Days spent in the sunshine
  • Swimming in the ocean
  • My family
  • Green juices
  • Yoga
  • Laughter with my girlfriends
  • Science

I can’t help but continue to wonder, is it our activities and loves that really define who we are or is there something more?


 

A massive shift in my personal circumstances recently turned my world upside down. For weeks I was in a haze of confusion, hurt and dismay, wondering if things could have gone differently, reflecting on conversations and thinking about what could have been. 

Over this time I became aware of a deep urge brewing, a craving for self-discovery, for re-visiting who I am and what it is that I truly want in life. Along with this came the realisation that I desperately need to prioritise myself, listen to my heart and meet my own needs, with a massive dose of self-love thrown in for good measure.


 

So, how did I get myself out of that funky place and into a zone where I am loving the expanse, where possibilities for the future are infinite, where I now have absolute confidence that the universe will provide exactly what I need?

Since I was craving calm I started a meditation course with my bestie – which was amazing both for the sense of release that meditation gave me but also for rekindling the connection with one of my oldest and dearest friends. The spiritual side of meditation delved further into the ponderings I had been having about who I am and what life means.  Though I am yet to implement meditation practice into my daily routine, the experience of learning to meditate has already touched my soul in ways I could not have imagined.

Gaining some clarity with how I want to feel after an impulse purchase of Danielle La Porte’s The Desire Map brought such a sense of release and confidence that life will work itself out.  And a deep understanding that ‘how I want to feel’ says SO much more about me than my age, what I do and what I like.

Euphoria

Serenity

Radiance

black-and-white-mood-board

Lastly, the first module of Rach Macdonald’s Bright Eyed and Blog Hearted course (which is absolutely amazing by the way) had me digging deep to discover what it is that I am passionate about, what makes my heart beat a little faster and brings a spark to my eye.  It brought me back to why I began this blog in the beginning and how it can change and evolve to suit my needs as I have grown as a person.  As I explored what the ‘purpose’ of this blog is, I realised that I should only do it if I really love it, if it is meaningful, if I am contributing something to the world.

Because really, when I think about what life is all about, it comes down to:

feeling good,

loving whole-heartedly

&

experiencing great joy 


 

Do you have any ideas about your life’s purpose?  Please share I would love to hear all about it

 

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5 thoughts on “Soul-searching and self-discovery

  1. Jenny Orenstein

    Hey Jasmine, I love this so much! You are SO much more than your age and career! Isn’t it amazing that we so often hold onto that but truly, when life throws us the curve balls – that is when we find out what is truly underneath – what it is that we yearn for! I’m sorry you’ve had a tough time but at the same time, i’m SO glad you’ve discovered more about you – and what i’m sure other people see IN YOU! I love your writing and feel like we’ve just caught up over a lovely coffee :) I’m looking forward to seeing how your journey unfolds! xox

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    1. jazziefizzle Post author

      Thanks so much for your comment Jenny! Yes sometimes it takes a but of upset to break through the other side – ahhh life, everything happens for a reason right?

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  2. Sharon

    Thank u for sharing. Thank u for asking the question about life purpose. I too have been asking this question. My life’s purpose. My souls purpose. I don’t yet have an answer but I know I’m at least on the right path. 10 years ago I wasn’t in such a great place. Mini nervous break down, diagnosed with Hashimotos and 3 children under 3.5 years. It was pretty ugly. But like you from the pain has come a realignment of my soul and life purpose. You may have just jumped paths and be headed where you are meant to be. I too enjoyed your post and love the photos particularly the one of the girl (is it you?) with the huge and beautiful smile.

    Keep smiling.

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    1. jazziefizzle Post author

      Thanks for your comment Sharon and I’m glad to hear that you have made some progress too!! ha no the girl smiling isn’t me but I love the joy of the photo – it completely encompasses how I want to feel in life!

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